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Jul 2016
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14: The Rise & Fall of My Creative Ego

Aileen Xu
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This week was a rollercoaster of emotions. At one point I felt so inspired, fulfilled, like I was on top of the world. And in the next moment, all of that confidence and excitement was squashed and I felt like I was worthless and ridiculous. And then I had to take some time to pick ... Read more

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