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Apr 2019
31m 57s

131: What if a psychotic break split you...

Wondery
About this episode

“I have a fear every single day am I going crazy and I don’t even know it? I didn’t know the things that I was doing and the things that I was saying were so extreme.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Nigel Coutinho


Episode Summary: After surviving a father whose mental illness consumed the family, a woman spirals down into psychosis and compulsive behaviors, finally leading her on the path to healing.


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