I left Spain to figure out what was wrong with me.
I had the dream life. The cobblestone streets. The European light. The copper bathtub imported from England that cost eleven thousand euros.
And I was miserable in ways I didn't have words for yet.
So I left. Convinced I was the problem.
I was wrong.
In this episode I'm recording from Harrison Hot Springs - sitting in a mineral pool, in the middle of a meditation that turned into a download - and I finally understand what I was actually running from. And why leaving was the most sane thing I ever did.
This is the episode for the woman who has spent years trying to fix herself. The woman who has read the books, done the work, followed the rules - and still feels like something is fundamentally broken.
Nothing is broken.
But something is wrong.
And until you figure out what that is, you will keep building beautiful lives on foundations that cannot hold you.
This is where we start.