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Aug 7
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S7/E47: Martfotai - I Am Held - Living B...

Russell A. Smith
About this episode

First live class of Martfotai, "Fasting the Inner 'I'" to be held on Sunday 17th August. Register at ⁠martfotai.com⁠ for further details.

In this thirteenth episode of Martfotai, we discover how to hold life's contradictions without being torn apart by them. This is not about finding balance through compromise, but about becoming the space vast enough to contain opposing forces simultaneously - the pivot point where all swing becomes stillness.

We explore the difference between being pulled apart by polarities and being held by what transcends them. Through practical exercises including the transformative "Pendulum Practice," we learn to embody both sides of any tension without collapse, discovering the Third Force that emerges when consciousness stops taking sides.

Drawing on Russell Smith's insights about becoming the pivot, Maurice Nicoll's understanding of Living Time, and the recognition that you are the space opposing forces move through, we develop the capacity to remain whole under pressure. This marks our deepest movement into Expansion - where the boundaries between inner opposites dissolve into spacious presence.

We uncover how the pendulum only exists when you identify with one end, how presence at maximum acceleration reveals your unshakeable nature, and how being held by invisible intelligence transforms every aspect of daily life.

In this episode, you will learn:

• How to hold contradiction without collapse through the revolutionary Pendulum Practice

• The difference between swinging between poles and becoming the pivot that allows all movement

• How to discover the Third Force that appears when you stop choosing sides

• Presence at maximum acceleration

• The distinction between Living Time and fragmented temporal experience

• How to remain intact under pressure through embodied integration

• Why you cannot drop half the stick - the wholeness principle behind all polarity

• Recognition practices for discovering what holds you when you stop holding yourself together

• How spacious relationships emerge when you include rather than fix contradiction

• The invisible holding that makes conscious response possible

Who this episode is for

This episode is for anyone exhausted by the inner war between competing needs, values, and desires. If you feel split between authenticity and belonging, effort and surrender, closeness and freedom - this episode offers a third way. It's for those ready to discover that the tensions pulling you apart might actually be the forces holding you together, and that what you seek isn't resolution but the recognition of what can hold all sides without breaking.

This is for anyone who has glimpsed that the opposites fighting within you are actually one movement, temporarily forgotten, and now ready to be remembered as the dance of wholeness itself.

We will soon be running public classes, commencing on 17th August, 2025. Visit martfotai.com⁠⁠⁠ to register for this and to receive our weekly newsletter, future class invites, guided practices, and premium extended teachings.

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