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Aug 6
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I thought I was helping… but I was actua...

Alyssa Zander
About this episode

Nine years ago, I walked the Camino de Santiago— thinking I was just going on an adventure with my little brother. But what I found on that path was something I didn’t expect: the truth about the role I was playing in my family’s pain.

This is the first episode in a special 4-part series where I’m sharing the moments that changed my life and my relationships forever. In this one, I talk about three turning points on the Camino: one with my brother, one with my mom, and one with my dad. Moments where I realized that all my fixing, caretaking, and trying to keep the peace wasn’t helping... it was actually holding us back from the deeper healing we all needed.

I share what happened, what it brought up in me, and how choosing honesty over harmony shifted the dynamic of our entire family. If you’ve ever felt responsible for everyone else’s emotions or found yourself avoiding the truth to keep others comfortable, I hope this episode lands in your heart.

This is a story about forgiveness, accountability, and learning to tell the truth — not to hurt, but to heal.

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