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Aug 6
1h 3m

How to Break Free When Shame Becomes You...

Emily Ford
About this episode

He tried to end his life three times. What happened next changed everything. 

Brad Scot Johnson was once a respected pastor with a global platform. But behind the sermons and stages was a man slowly unraveling - battling addiction, shame, infidelity, and internal collapse. His fall was public. His marriage ended. And his soul was buried in shame. Until one day, he woke up after another suicide attempt and asked: If God wanted me dead… why did He let me live?

In this deeply honest conversation, Brad shares the raw truth of what it means to fall hard and rise again - not just to ministry, but to identity, purpose, and divine restoration. This isn’t a story about being perfect. It’s a story about what God can do when you finally surrender your shame.

What you’ll learn:
  • How shame keeps you from stepping into your authority
  • Why guilt and shame are not the same and how to heal
  • How to hear from God when you feel unworthy
  • What it means to be “called and crowned” after failure
  • The spiritual and scientific path to becoming whole again
Timestamps:

(02:36) - Brad’s Three Suicide Attempts (09:13) - Living a Double Life as a Pastor (13:29) - The Godly encounter that sparked a spiritual shift (22:30) - The Story of King David: What it really means to be “Called and Crowned” (29:09) - Guilt vs Shame: Which one is keeping you stuck? (33:36) - How to bounce back from shame and let God restore you (43:29) - Brad and Karen’s love story (54:17) - How God uses the brain to heal the heart (54:50) The Jungle vs The Highway Metaphor (59:29) - You are not what you did. You are who God says you are.

Grab a copy of Brad’s Book:
  • Bounce Back, Bounce Better: The Transformative Mindset for Resilience, Power, and Abundance | https://a.co/d/0y9ZjC4 
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