it's not over.
are things out of your control? yes. does it feel crushing to not see any progress as you try to improve your situation? absolutely. but it doesn't mean you can't change.
be patient, focus on the things you can control. find out what you can change moving forward, DO NOT get stuck ruminating in the past.
that's how you build resentment towards yourself.
sending you all tons of love and peaaaaaaaaaaaaaace!