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Jan 2025
39m 43s

Bipolar Relapse: Personal Journey of War...

Gabe Howard & Dr. Nicole Washington
About this episode

What happens when someone with bipolar disorder relapses after years of stability? In this deeply personal episode, Dr. Nicole Washington interviews Gabe Howard, who lives with bipolar disorder, about his recent mood episode and relapse. Together, they uncover the subtle warning signs Gabe overlooked, the crucial role loved ones—and even strangers—played in recognizing the episode, and the surprising strategies that helped him regain stability.

From grappling with medication changes to discovering the therapeutic power of a daily walk, Gabe shares raw insights about living with bipolar disorder. Whether you're managing your own mental health, supporting someone you love, or simply curious about the realities of navigating a mood disorder, this episode offers valuable lessons and a message of hope: Recovery is always possible, even after setbacks.

“The number one thing that I wish that people wouldn't have said to me is, oh, you'll get through this because you've always gotten through it before. No matter how many times you've been through this, this does not guarantee success. That is a stupid thing to say. All of the people who I was in their thoughts and prayers. It's like, I know that's a nice thing, but I could really use actual help. Actual effort, labor, time, love. And you're just like, hey, I'm thinking of you.” ~Gabe Howard, Host


To learn more -- or read the transcript -- please visit the official episode page.


Our host, Gabe Howard, is an award-winning writer and speaker who lives with bipolar disorder. He is the author of the popular book, "Mental Illness is an Asshole and other Observations," available from Amazon; signed copies are also available directly from the author. To learn more about Gabe, or book him for your next event, please visit his website, gabehoward.com. You can also follow him on Instagram and TikTok at @askabipolar.


Our host, Dr. Nicole Washington, is a native of Baton Rouge, Louisiana, where she attended Southern University and A&M College. After receiving her BS degree, she moved to Tulsa, Oklahoma to enroll in the Oklahoma State University College of Osteopathic Medicine. She completed a residency in psychiatry at the University of Oklahoma in Tulsa. Since completing her residency training, Washington has spent most of her career caring for and being an advocate for those who are not typically consumers of mental health services, namely underserved communities, those with severe mental health conditions, and high performing professionals. Through her private practice, podcast, speaking, and writing, she seeks to provide education to decrease the stigma associated with psychiatric conditions. Find out more at DrNicolePsych.com.

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