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Oct 2023
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073 | My First Psychedelic Ego Death: Em...

Modern Psychedelics
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Who knew that connection to music could get you to the point of having a psychedelic ego death and integrating your inner darkness? Or that a psychedelic experience at a music festival could help you understand the unintegrated darkness within humanity?

Today I am sharing the story of my very first psychedelic ego death, which lead to profound insights and new understanding of my own human depth. I touch on the mind & spiritual prep I did, setting, what I gained from the experience, and my integration process.


Topics covered:

  • There are no boundaries around how a meaningful psychedelic experience can happen
  • How I prepared my mindset and intentions for this experience
  • Losing myself in music & becoming music
  • Being the awareness that is simply observing
  • Falling in love with the darkness and my inner darkness
  • Integrating the inner darkness and “savage beast” within
  • The journey to wholeness includes integrating the darkness
  • Understanding the horrific integration of darkness within humanity


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