Once I was broken I made sure this doesn't happen again So went and found my own place caved up in a shell ... Things were good life was good It was treating me well Until I met you and things started going to hell I started going to hell met the devil himself Things went so fast didn't have the time to second guess Found me a mirror so I found a way to stop and reflect Realized its been a while since I looked at myself People ask me all the time how you smile when you breaking I say its been a while so I just got used to the faking I want it to stop I'm tired of waiting You never understand and I'm tired of translating Got rid of my heart now I'm sure you can't break it Studied every mistake to be sure I won't make it That's my problem you see I want everything so perfect And nothing really is that's why I'm always so nervous Is this really worth it? Baby tell me so These questions on my mind yeah they devastate my soul Always wasting time on things I can't control Like my thoughts or the time or the weather or my mind look I can't keep going back Keep falling into your trap I'm letting go of the past I feel you're slipping away So I will force you to stay Until I feel okay Do you know what it's like when you push feelings aside No one really knows what's really going inside And it hurts me just to show that you are on my mind And it kills me although it makes me feel so alive Can't keep thinking should start drinking Take another sip make me feel like I'm living Take me on a trip I wanna start trippin Take another pill and reality becomes fiction You're reminding me of something I'm wishing to forget Wish I could find the words would've told you how I felt Always in a fight my opponent is myself And it feels like I'm losing but I gotta black belt My ego is my weakness got a lot of secrets Can't tell you nun cause you can't really keep it We can start to run but reality will beat us That's why we should stop and let the world deceit us I can't keep going back Keep falling into your trap I'm letting go of the past I feel you're slipping away So I will force you to stay Until I feel okay