Look how many times did I fall for the drugs Got me trippin got me thinking if I'm ever gonna love Cuz I got pure hate in my heart ...Its been tearing me apart Reminiscing from the start Never leave my guard down Cuz if I do I get scarred Looking feelings grown apart I don't treat her like I love her Only slatt for my brothers Cuz they there for one another If I'm sad that she don't love me Grab my pain throw it under I'm reliving every night Paranoia cuz I'm high I don't ever wanna land Cuz I really just wanna die Times I really wanna live Got me thinking bout those times Try to relive the moment but that moment don't come alive Look you finna come around to the point that you wanna die Looking back to the years how the fuck did I survive I was depending on drugs in order not to lose my mind Walking with a smile owned it up wearing my disguise Lonely nights when I was caged in my mind Had no love what the fuck it's the same love Out every night got me trippin when I'm high Tried to run up on me I was fucked up couldn't fight Facing only in bumps in life I can't even walk I can't even talk Smoking on moon rock Pussy really tried to rob me for my fucking pot Imma have to hit a lick but that shit ain't what I been taught You don't know what it feels like You don't know what it feels like You don't know what it feels like You don't know what it feels like You don't know what it feels like You don't know what it feels like You don't know what it feels like You don't know what it feels like Don't compare our pain no right Yo pain finna stay as yours And my pain finna stay as mine No one can ever help me Cuz I had to learn how to pick myself up Even if it meant that I lose self love Look how many times did I fall for the drugs Got me trippin got me thinking if I'm ever gonna love Cuz I got pure hate in my heart Its been tearing me apart Reminiscing from the start Never leave my guard down Cuz if I do I get scarred Looking feelings grown apart I don't treat her like I love her Only slatt for my brothers Cuz they there for one another If I'm sad that she don't love me Grab my pain throw it under Grab my heart Rip it apart Throw it under the bed Shining stars Love scars Got me fucked up in the head And I been looking for something I'm never gonna fucking get She don't like when I be smoking every puff just to forget And it sucks to not be loved But I don't love so I don't give a fuck I don't really got no trust I'm tryna fuck you know is lust I've given up I've had enough Just keep it real don't try to front Doing drugs getting high You don't know what it feels like