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Feb 2021
32m 3s

Series 1: 10. It’s all behind me now

Bbc Radio 5 Live
About this episode

Sam’s son Matthew was just seven when he was taken to Syria and the Islamic State group. He thought he’d never see America again. Now he’s back with his dad and talks of the “sweet relief” of being home.

Josh finds out how he and Sam’s other children are doing now.

This episode includes references to violence and some upsetting moments involving children.

Reporter: Josh Baker Written by: Josh Baker and Joe Kent Producers: Joe Kent and Max Green Production assistant: Lucie Sullivan Composer: Sam Slater Mixed by: Tom Brignell Series Editor: Emma Rippon

Commissioning Executive: Dylan Haskins Commissioning Editor: Jason Phipps

“I’m Not a Monster” is a collaboration between BBC Panorama and FRONTLINE (PBS) and is a BBC Radio Current Affairs production for BBC Sounds

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