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Dec 2020
32m 6s

Series 1: 6. Now I’m calling the shots

Bbc Radio 5 Live
About this episode

A torture prison, buying slaves and a dramatic escape: Sam continues her account of her years in Raqqa.

This episode includes references to sexual abuse, extreme violence and some upsetting moments involving children.

Reporter: Josh Baker Written by: Josh Baker and Joe Kent Producers: Joe Kent and Max Green Production assistant: Lucie Sullivan Composer: Sam Slater Mixed by: Rod Farquhar Series Editor: Emma Rippon

Commissioning Executive: Dylan Haskins Commissioning Editor: Jason Phipps

If you've been affected by any of the issues in this series, please contact support organisations in your own country.

For a list of organisations in the UK that can provide support for survivors of sexual abuse, go to bbc.co.uk/actionline

“I’m Not a Monster” is a collaboration between BBC Panorama and FRONTLINE (PBS) and is a BBC Radio Current Affairs production for BBC Sounds.

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