At 56 years old, after a lifetime of ministry as a worship pastor, lead pastor, and shepherd, I’ve found myself asking one of the hardest questions of my life:
“Is this the end of my ministry passion?”
In this deeply personal episode, I explore what it feels like when the fire of calling flickers—when leadership conflict wears you down, when the work no longer feels aligned with your gifts, when age and insecurity creep in, and when the desire to teach, lead, and shepherd gets buried under tech duties and daily pressure.
But this isn’t a story about quitting.
It’s a story about rediscovery.
I talk about:
feeling unseen in your gifts
the grief of changing seasons
the fear of stepping into new ministry roles
the longing to preach, teach, and disciple again
how God reawakens passion in surprising ways
why 56 might actually be the beginning—not the end—of your true pastoral calling
If you’re wrestling with your purpose, your energy, or your future in ministry, this episode will breathe honesty, courage, and hope into your soul.
