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Jul 1
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369: What if you lit yourself on fire?

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About this episode

Suffering a life of struggle and addiction in the wake of early childhood abuse, a woman desperate for a dramatic change dowses herself in gasoline and strikes a lighter. 

 

Today’s episode featured Crystal Raye. Please find her contact and socials in her link tree here: https://linktr.ee/crhmedia. There, she also includes several links to Burn Survivor Resources and support. 


Find Crystal on Instagram @theburnedthebrokenthebeautiful and on TikTok @crystalraye111


A special thanks to Daniel Hearn of Hard Knox Talks Podcast for referring Crystal to us. You can find him here: https://linktr.ee/hardknoxtalks. Daniel has also been a storyteller on This Is Actually Happening, please listen to his episode #350.


Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits, 

 

Content/Trigger Warnings: childhood sexual abuse, drug use and addiction, self-immolation, severe burn injury, attempted suicide, explicit language

 

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Intro Music: “Sleep Paralysis” - Scott Velasquez

Music Bed: Uncertain Outcomes

 

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National Suicide and Crisis Lifeline: Text or Call 988 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

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