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It’s Not You – It’s Your Buried Emotional Child
You've spent decades running from the knot in your gut, the tightness in your chest, the wave of dread that hits when life gets quiet. You numb it, distract it, intellectualize it, but the truth is brutal: healing doesn't happen by staying ahead of the pain. It begins the moment you stop escaping and start letting yourself feel exactly how bad it really is.
The Brutal Truth About Avoidance
You keep yourself seven steps ahead of the feelings living in your body. Phones, booze, work, sex, endless planning—anything to avoid the terror of actually being present with what’s inside. Connection is what you crave most, yet it’s what you fear most because trauma taught you closeness equals danger. Without a safe bond to your own body, you flee into thought, ruminating to pacify the discomfort. The more you avoid, the smaller your life becomes. You watch yourself from the outside, hyper-vigilant, scanning for threats, never truly inhabiting your skin.
Why the Feelings Got Buried—and Why They’re Screaming Now
When you were small, there was no one to hold your fear, loneliness, or rage. Feelings got dismissed, punished, or ignored, so you learned to disconnect, dissociate, and survive by abandoning your body. Those emotions didn’t disappear—they froze in place. Decades later, as distractions fade and space opens up, they rise like trapped energy demanding release. Your nervous system still believes feeling them will destroy you. That’s why the mind races to distract, why addictions promise relief but eventually collapse, leaving you more terrified of the very sensations you’ve spent a lifetime fleeing.
How Sitting With It Changes Everything
Start lying down in a quiet room, lights off, phone gone. Notice where the discomfort lives—usually the belly. Breathe into it. When your mind drifts to rumination, gently return to sensation. This is exposure work: short bursts at first, building tolerance like lifting weights after years away. You don’t dive into the worst memories yet. You simply meet what’s already here. Over time, the energy moves, cathartic tears and anger release what’s been poisoning you. You begin functioning even when grief or fear hits. The paralyzed child inside starts to feel seen, slowly bridging back to the adult who can now hold space.
Three Important Takeaways
Conclusion
Stop waiting for the feelings to go away on their own. They won’t. Schedule the time to feel bad. Lie down, get quiet, and let yourself hurt as much as you need to. It’s agonizing, there are no shortcuts, and nobody else can do it for you. But every minute you stay present instead of running builds strength, clears space, and returns sovereignty to the child who’s been screaming inside. The freedom on the other side isn’t fake positivity—it’s the ability to live in your body without fear owning you. You’ve survived avoidance long enough. Now start feeling your way home.