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Apr 2024
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087 | My Full Psychedelic Healing Journe...

Modern Psychedelics
About this episode

This episode is so personal and vulnerable that I am almost uncomfortable sharing it publicly. I share my entire life story and my healing journey out of the darkness. I take listeners through the formation  of my core wounds and self-destructive narratives, which ultimately left me depressed, anxious, lost, and disempowered to move my life forward in a positive direction.

But that’s only half of the story. The second half is the documentation of my healing journey with therapy,  medicine work and self-discovery. By sharing these details, I am shining a light of the gift of the struggle. Most of my life has been an uphill battle, but in recent years I have reached a place of peace, happiness and fulfillment. And most of all, gratitude for it ALL!

Please consume this episode with nothing but love, as the specifics shared are very vulnerable and done with the aim of inspiring and giving hope to others who are also struggling in life. One thing is for sure: It’s possible to get to the other side, and life can be better than you ever thought possible.


Topics Covered:

  • Being born into a war and fleeing the country
  • The refugee experience as a young girl
  • My first portal into self awareness and reflection
  • My first taste of rejection and comparison energy
  • Early experiences using alcohol & drugs to self-medicate
  • How cystic acne and my weight made my self-confidence plummet
  • The development of my core wounding & self-destructive narratives
  • Struggles with finding my career path and purpose
  • My first ever experience with MDMA & how I changed
  • Grad school: my dark night of the soul + mental health hell
  • The moment everything crashed and the misalignment became clear
  • Being a doormat in romantic relationships
  • Recovering from codependent patterns & loss of love
  • Replacing psychotherapy with Ayahuasca
  • How Microdosing and coaching started moving me forward


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