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Feb 2021
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176: What if you were trapped in a never...

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About this episode

“I was asleep. Everything I was going through was not real, and it’s just this very convincing feeling that you’re right about this”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A woman develops a severe eating disorder that lands her in intensive psychiatric care, where an extreme treatment program traps her in an alternate reality from which she cannot escape. 

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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, eating disorder, psychosis, child abuse, suicidal ideation, suicide attempt, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

 

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If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


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