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Sep 2020
59m 49s

162: What if you grew up in a cult?

Wondery
About this episode

“I didn’t know what normal was, so everything looked so scary….Everything I was doing I was learning for the time it was like my birth into the world.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A woman puts the pieces of her life back together after a childhood spent inside an insidious religious cult in Los Angeles.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: child abuse, sexual abuse, suicide, death, drug use, mental illness, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” – Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

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