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Sep 2022
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246: What if you could never be what the...

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Always feeling she had failed the ideals of her strict Muslim, South Asian family and community, a woman struggles to navigate trauma, shame and self-expression, when unexpected news forces her into a powerful reckoning.


Today‘s episode featured Azzah Ahmad. You can find out more about Azzah by visiting her Instagram page @Lifeazziknowit.


Content/Trigger Warnings:  sexual abuse of a minor, suicidal ideation, explicit language

 

Producer: Whit Missildine, Sara Marinelli

 

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Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

 

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