Season: Fall
A smell of honeysuckle
Dating you was Coquette’s favorite perfume to put on before seeing Siren.
Coquette wasn’t your average prostitute. For her it had nothing to do with getting paid financially. Her form of payment was paid by how she felt emotionally.
[Prostitute: A person, in particular a woman, who engages in sexual activity for payment.]
They were walking by a homeless man and a second later he wrapped his arms around her walking behind her. She dated guys who would pay no mind or attention to whether she felt safe when she was with them and he was making sure that she felt safe. Without knowing that she had always been frightened of strangers only not homeless people.
She felt homeless people were the closest to God. Maybe it wasn’t too far off. God did say in scripture that he’s close to the broken-hearted. Maybe there was a lot more to it than people would like to think or maybe they knew but it was easier to ignore. We all have battles… only theirs seem to be on display for the world to see. It seemed to her that hers were too. People knew what kind of girl she was. What people didn’t know was there was much more to her then she would let them see. Still, she couldn’t talk about God. If there was anyone qualified for that job it certainly couldn’t be her.
It wasn’t until after her last transaction that she was beginning to understand that although she believed in God – she didn’t know God.
A part of her wondered if she still would let herself get walked all over.. if she still could.
It was as if she came with a price tag and the only time she would get bought was when she put herself on clearance.
It seemed as if it was only those kind of men who could afford her.
But how did I get here again?
What got to her that night was the thought of him wanting to make her feel safe and comfortable. Her favorite things in life were moments like these. Moments where she felt that someone musthave God’s ear because only God can whisper the exact thing needed at that moment, moving hearts and creating a memory like this is what she believed had to have been sent from God.
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