Back Together.

“In quiet and stillness shall be your strength”

That is where I had to go for a little while. I went into a quiet place alone with God. That is where I learned to be still. It seemed for a little while that it didn’t matter how much I slept, I could never feel rested enough. Yet, I would go into this quiet place with him and I it wouldn’t matter how much sleep I didn’t get, I wouldn’t feel weary. Tired, eventually yes and then I would sleep really well.

During my quiet time, I would put on a YouTube video and listen to his word or journal. It wasn’t so much about having anything to say, it was more about calling onto him and he would take care of the rest.

I eventually wondered why was it that I was so tired before? What made me so tired that sleep couldn’t fix it? It was my heart. My heart was sick and if your heart is sick it can affect the rest of your body. My heart wasn’t sick on the outside but I feel after all it had been through, the fire kinda had been put out. No fire meant no passion. There was no drive.

When you find yourself cocooned in isolation and you cannot find your way out of darkness… Remember this is similar to the place where caterpillars go to grow their wings.

Treating a symptom isn’t the same as getting to the root of the problem. That explained why trying to get more sleep never worked. Our hearts can get so heavy with all that we carry in it. Sometimes it gets really heavy because of a who. I think we give people too much power when we give them a piece of our heart.

God comforted my heart. He also put it back together.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://bossbabeliving.home.blog/2021/02/05/back-together/