Is love suppose to make you be at war wi...

I had to learn to focus on something other than how disappointed I was in him, in us, in the way things were turning out.

I had this thought

Maybe I was giving him too much credit?

Maybe I wasn’t giving myself enough?

My gut would often tell me when things were off but after a while, your gut can betray you because you start to expect bad news. Things that are good can’t be true.

Better question

Is love suppose to make you be at war with yourself?

Most times I could drown out the noise coming from my insides but sometimes I couldn’t ignore it. This was not it. He wasn’t it. I just wanted him to be.

I wasn’t a bad cook. This was just a bad recipe and I had to know better. A good recipe leads to a good meal. This was not only bad but it was poisonous.

I felt the shift of change approach.

I was either going to go more insane trying to change enough ingredients to make a good meal out of this OR I was going to go hungry.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://bossbabeliving.home.blog/2021/02/01/uncooked-chicken-can-kill-you-l-1/