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Feb 2022
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Is God Angry w/ Me: The Journey of Surre...

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*Content Warning: this episode discusses topics such as pregnancy loss and miscarriage*

How does one come to terms with any hardship in their life where you have to accept what is happening to you while it’s happening to you?

From time to time I am hit with the realization that sends a chill down my spine, that everything that has happened to me, not only affects me, but also affects so many others, even strangers whom i’ll never meet. Every single thing that is written for us is just a piece of a puzzle that is larger than us and every hardship and life experience we go through connects each and every single one of us to one another. 

Today’s special guest is Shakirah Sabira, founder of Barakah's Doula, and someone who wears many hats which includes being a midwife, womb healer, and meditation teacher to name a few. 

Through this conversation with Shakirah she takes us on a very intimate journey recalling a moment in her life that had changed her forever, that while a baby was growing inside of her, little did she know what she was truly preparing for. 

Shakira's story reminds us of our own moments in life where we had asked ourselves...is Allah angry with  me, am I not good enough and what did I do to deserve this?

Subhnallah, how every woman carries with her a story that has changed her forever, and even though Shakira and I may have each been tested differently by our Creator, we have found commonalities in the process of surrendering and understanding that the pain we may be experiencing does not mean that Allah intends to hurt us.

We are reminded not only that everything in this dunya is temporary, but that nothing is truly ours to keep - for even our own bodies are a loan from Allah. 

To every woman out there who has experienced a loss in the form of a  miscarriage, I am deeply sorry and I know that grief knows no timeline, and I pray that you are surrounded by loved ones who remind you to be gentle with yourself and that you are not alone. 

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